||[Oct. 2nd, 2008|09:39 pm]
so my dads dumb as rocks girlfriend has decided to come visit. |
[ They are in a long distance relationship.
She is my dads cousins best friend... and well its hard to explain.. basically my dad travels ALL THE TIME so w/e it's not so bad for them]
She wanst to 'suprise' my extended family because she thinks we'll all be estatic to see her.
but no. Mosto f them haven't even met her. & Like ive posted about.. my fam is REALLY close. My mom is still a HUGE part of us.. we talk about her all the time. You can't justt SUPRISE THEM [esp my cousins who considered my mom their 2nd mom] with a new lady. It's just RUDE.
also, I do not like this woman at all. She tries really hard to be motherly towards me, and tries way too hard to be cute.
She talks to me like I am 5... and treats me as if i am a child. Sorry dear, i grew up a long time ago. I haven't had a mother figure for years, I don't need one now.
She also tries to give my dad parenting advice.
I'm sorry, I am 22 years old, my father can't really tell me what to do. Also, he pretty much forfeited all right he had to 'govern' when he turned to alcoholism when I was 14... and my mother died.
My dad and I have worked through it, we are now closer than most father/daughters...
He does a lot for me & I am grateful for it.. but I know that he does most of it because he feels guilty that i basically raised myself...during the toughest years of adolescense.
And i turned out damned good. I have AMAZING friends, I'm a 3rd year university student with a 3.1 GPA, I don't do drugs, I make good decisions... I'm also pretty independant.. I do my own thing.. and I'm fine with it. I don't need people to hold my hand, in fact i HATE when people do that.. and that is why most of my romantic relationships end.
It has been my dad and I for 8 years, and we have been fine. I have NO PROBLEM with her being in our lives, but SHE CANNOT CHANGE THINGS.
She told me that I'm a spoiled brat because I have everything handed to me. EXCUSE ME?
I'm obv not going to tell her about my past because it's none of her business.. and I know my dad doesn't like it when i tell people.. It was REALLY, REALLY BAD.. [and you know what? sometimes it still is. His Alcohol abuse will always be a presence in my life] but she has no right to judge me.
She also mentions my past decisions. She needs to realize that while I'm fine with her being a part of the present & possibly the future, she does not belong in my past.
She wanted me to take her to my MOTHERS grave. & she tried to talk to me about her death. WHAT RIGHT DOES SHE HAVE TO EVEN TALK ABOUT MY MOTHER?
ALSO, she made me watch this video of her and her deceased husband.. to show me that she's been 'hurt' too.
I REALIZE THIS.. but i did not need to see that video. In fact i thought it was rude and inconsiderate. & I'm sorry but she can never EVER know the pain of losing your mother at 14 & being COMPLETELY ALONE.
and then my dad told her that my mom was bi polar. AND SHE WAS, but it's a SICKNESS she couldn't help that sometimes she had bad days. she wasn't a horrible person.. & i will never EVER love my dads girlfriend the way i love my mom. I HATE when she makes judgements.
She keeps emailing me and is like "OH YOU'LL HAVE TO INTRODUCE ME TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS"
i'm getting so mad. I dont even want to BE HERE when she is.
i hate her.
I hate this